July triggered a lot of emotions related to our "getting pregnant journey". The bizarre thing is that the type of events which took place never bothered me much in the past but this time, I suffered massively. It was all to do with our friend's children who had her birthday, learned to cylce their child or their yearly family holiday, etc.

This time it was all very different ...

I think the main reason is that with most of our friends and family live in Belgium and as a result, we do not have much daily contact and therefore, you do not always know what's happening in their daily life and their children's activities. However, with some of our friends in the UK, we have daily contact because of the nature of the relationship as we also work together, hence why, you get a much better picture of their family life with their children, you start to know their daily and weekend routines etc.

This all resulted in a lot of tears from my perspective as I suddenly realised that we do not have these routines with the children and you start to wonder whether you will ever have this. Anyway, not sure what to do as there's no real solution to this but for me to learn to cope with the situation and hope that one day it will be my turn.  I should not beat myself up but of course, that's all easier said as done.