I thought I was doing well and was actually proud of myself as so far - we are now day 7 after embryo transfer - I have been able to cope with the stress which comes with the 2week wait. I have been seeing friends, went for a facial, do breathing techniques, have more sleep, think positive, etc which I never did in the past which makes that during previous cycles I felt much more nervous. And of course, I continue to get all these nice messages of support from people to who I would like to say "Thank You" as I know that you are reading this blog on a regular basis to keep yourself uptodate. Actually, a few of our friends thought it was really good to be able to read the blog as it gives them a better insight in the emotional rollercoaster when doing IVF as of course, it's not easy for people in your environment to always understand what you are going through but this helps them as well and as a result, they are uptodate and they have a good idea of my emotional state when they give a call or so.

So, yesterday, I also spoke to the fertility consultant as I wanted to check from when it would make sense to do a pregnancy test and therefore from when it could show. He said it would be OK to do a test on the morning of day 10 after embryo transfer and another at day 12. Of course, in the worst case, I could get my periods - which is usually between day 10 and 14 - which would mean the end of a dream. However, so far, I have been good as I have been very positive and did not consider this as an option as I am sure I would be pregnant.

However, last night, I felt completely different and therefore, the nervousness kicked in this morning. During the night, I got more and more stomach aches which almost show that my periods are coming through which of course I do not want. But actually, you do not really know what you sometimes feel as it's a very mix of emotions but one thing is for sure, you do not want your period pains coming. 

Also, the last few days, I suffered a lot from my eczema and it has been very itchy and painful but really, I did not want to use the cream which I normally would use as it's not recommended to use the cream when you are pregnant and I consider myself pregnant at this point in time.

The last few days, I have been talking a lot about babies and felt so good, we talked about names, we discussed how we would reorganise the house a little for the baby, etc and also I had these visions of us and a baby. I know it's not lost yet but I am just very anxious because of these stomach aches.

This morning, I scheduled an acupuncture session as they recommend to do another acupuncture session at 7days after embryo transfer, so I booked this appointment a week ago. Apparently, the purpose is to focus on the kidneys but also, I am sure that the acupuncture will also help with the relaxation as it did in the past and hopefully, it will help to get through the next few days. I might book another session next week just to help me with the relaxation.

And of course, next week, I have this other pressing event. It's my birthday on Wednesday and I still hope that I will get the dream of a birthday present, a baby for which we have been longing for for such a long time.