So, did another pregnancy test this morning which showed negative and this time the test worked. I suppose this is the end of our hope and dream. Not sure yet what to do in the future but will see as it's far too early.

There goes my birthday present again. Another year gone. Not sure yet what still to believe as over the years, we went to see a few fortune tellers or tarrot card readers and they all told us that we would have children and at this point in time, I do not have a clue from where they will come from. I suppose that they won't be dropped at our doorstep but not sure how that will be achieved. Anyway, I suppose I better stop writing for this morning as I get in a very pessimistic and sarcastic mood and I better give it a break.